I used to think that being fashionable,wearing long hair,earrings,necklace,etc harm my study,since these things may account for a large quantity of time and distract attention away.But one thing I forgot was that I am a girl at such an age desiring BEAUTY and GOOD EXPRESSION on others.Why I was always repressing my internal desire and human instinct?

As a college student now,I am not that kind of girl like before who often obeyed and said nothing, uncritically satisfying other people rather than my own thought.I am feeling utterly tired.
Of course,I will stick to basic rules of being a good girl and an amiable person,which is quite a truth my family and companions know clearly.
Accurately,I don't want to renounce the whole self of me.I just need a specific change or turning point to bring the new back to myself.I'd like to gonna shine and more individual.-XUAR